Although there are countless words left unspoken between us, variably due to cowardice, shame or remorse, i have to be honest that i feel restrained to how i should act around. Maybe it's not the right time to talk but I'm sure someday it will be.
I know my reputation and its pallid color. I hope to be criticized because i guess - i know i deserve to be treated as such. I'm sorry this apology is practically indirect and futile.