Oh the Irony

Explicitly written on all my recent posts is the undeniable irony of my initial intent for making a blog. The purpose of this blog is now the complete opposite as proof of my entries. I loathe all those who pour and advertise their heartaches and angst whether or not it's to harbor pity from others. Despite also riding on this bandwagon of hate, I've learned that it's healthy writing about all sorts of dilemma such as the qualms and anger experienced daily. Excessively writing about this however irritates me to the bone. Maybe I should hate myself for doing the same. Oh the irony. I guess keeping the balance between my personal ups and downs is regarded to be my remedy for this ironic predicament.

Shoelace

Intrepidity is nothing without purpose. In the same sense, love is abstract and probably one-sided if you share shallow and superficial reasons for your partner. We may never find out what the future holds for us if we don't try. Attempting to makes it worthwhile and purposeful each day.

Cowardly Remorse

Although there are countless words left unspoken between us, variably due to cowardice, shame or remorse, i have to be honest that i feel restrained to how i should act around. Maybe it's not the right time to talk but I'm sure someday it will be.

I know my reputation and its pallid color. I hope to be criticized because i guess - i know i deserve to be treated as such. I'm sorry this apology is practically indirect and futile.

Certainty

Predicting the future is nearly impossible for anyone unless there are clues and information that can lead to a high probability guess. In spite of that, it is still speculation to what can or may occur. Doubt will always linger at the back of your head that presumes and assumes all probable outcomes of each action we make. Why is it that we are so fixated in actually taking a step back when we can take a step forward? We're not sure of everything but we can always find out.

ADCJ

You know what it is, but we're always afraid to find out. I'm glad you uttered those words despite the horrendous smell of my mouth. I love you too i said.